Outlaw Queen morning after fic requested by incandescint taking place after the Kiss, because, come on we know what happened that night…..
Something smelled … wrong. Just wrong. Regina burrowed deeper into her bed, though her California King felt stiff and full of lumps. And it was cold….
me in math class
Robin knew she wasn’t really cheating on him. Well, the rational part of his brain did. There was, however, a deep, dark part of him that had its suspicions.
She had developed a habit of sneaking off at random parts of the day, never telling anyone where she was going. And while the logical part of his mind insisted that she had a good reason for this, he wasn’t sure what it could possibly be.
So, Robin did the sensible thing and asked her about it. Her answer was evasive and slightly embarrassed, which fuelled Robin’s deeper worries.
It wasn’t until she came to him one evening with tears streaking down her cheeks that he finally got her to open up. He took her out past the glow of the fire, deeper into the privacy of the forest. There, he simply held her as the night deepened around them.
“What is it?” he asked softly.
“I’m sorry I’ve been lying to you,” she whispered into his chest.
“Are you ready to tell me yet?”
She nodded, still not looking up. “I go to see Henry,” she mumbled, so low he could barely hear her.
Robin felt that small and extremely unwelcome knot of bitterness in his chest disappear. “You’re ashamed of visiting your son?”
“He doesn’t…he isn’t always aware of my presence.” She tensed in his arms and Robin tightened his hold on her.
“Why not just talk to him?”
She shook her head. “It is too painful. Him not knowing who I am…”
“So why go at all?”
She leaned back so he could see her face, her hands splayed on his chest. “I’m his mother, despite everything. I can’t help but feel he still needs me. But he doesn’t.” Tears leaked from her eyes. Robin cupped her cheek and rubbed his thumb over her tear. He dropped his head so their eyes were level.
“He does need you. Even if he doesn’t know it.”
She nodded, but the tears flowed faster and she glanced away. “I just need to see that he is safe.”
Understanding dawned. “You are keeping watch over him.”
“I suppose…I suppose I am.” Her expression cleared somewhat. “Still, I know it is wrong. It’s Emma’s job now.”
“It’s the whole town’s job to keep each other safe. You and Henry are a part of that. While I think it wouldn’t hurt to trust the others to protect him, I understand the impulse to know for yourself. I am fairly sure I would be the same if Roland didn’t remember me and danger lurked around every corner.”
She gave him a watery smile. “I should have told you sooner. I’m sorry.”
Robin gathered her into his arms once again and kissed her tenderly. “While I could do without the secrets, please don’t ever apologise for loving your son.”
She smiled, stronger this time. “Alright. It’s a promise.”
♫ The crashes are heaven to a sinner like me.